Headcanon ficathon!

[reikah]

Well, it's been a while since the Olympics, so I thought I'd throw this here as a fun community event (don't worry, this isn't the summer challenge/contest, I'm still ironing that out).

Welcome to the Kurofai headcanon meme!

What is a headcanon? A headcanon, for those of you not familiar with the terminology, is "An idea, belief, or aspect of a story that is not mentioned in the media itself, but is accepted by either the reader themselves or the fandom in general. If it is confirmed by the author of the story, it becomes canon." (Thanks, urban dictionary!) Examples might include 'Fai has terrible metabolism, his feet get very cold' or 'one of Mokona's 108 techniques is Vibrate Mode' or anything else you feel is true but never confirmed in the text. Not all headcanons are worksafe.

How it works:

You leave a comment with one of your Kurofai headcanons. You can do so signed into a dreamwidth account or anonymously, for those of you without dreamwidth accounts/with embarrassing headcanons.

Someone else will write a short story based around your headcanon, and post it as a reply to you.

In short, it works a lot like clampkink - but for headcanons rather than kinks!

Anonymous commenting is enabled, but you do not need to post headcanons/stories anonymously if you don't want to. I'm also going to go ahead and label this post NOT WORKSAFE preemptively, so please be careful browsing where your computer access is monitored! Stories can be as long and short as you like, and as SFW/NSFW as you feel like, or, if you prefer, you can fill with fanart instead - both are excellent. For our rules on threesomes or moresomes, check the comm rules in our profiles.

That's all the nitty-gritty out of the way - now let's go ahead and share some headcanons!

Filled Headcanons
Fai's hands hurt after the tower - filled by cloverfield
Holitsuba!Fai gives Kurogane finger puppets to help him teach sex ed - filled by Anon
Fai always could use chopsticks - he just pretended not to as part of his harmless idiot act - filled by eijentu
Fai doesn't like to sleep alone - filled by Anon
Tomoyo hand-stitched Fai's furisode herself - filled by ereshkigali
Fai is disappointed to be alive after Outo - filled by farenmaddox
Kurogane is an absolute SAP - filled by zelinxia
When Fai began to suspect what was going on with Ashura, he evacuated the survivors of Ceres to another world, which the travelers then encounter during their journey - filled by Anon
Kurogane forced Fai to feed the first time in Infinity - filled by farenmaddox
Kuro-sama likes being tied up - filled by cloverfield
Yama & Outo - Kurogane realises he's fallen for Fai - filled by rinoa11
Kurogane had a crush on an older ninja who acted like Fai, who died - filled by zelinxia
Kurogane is really bad in bed the first time - filled by tsubasafan
BB!Fai remained friends with the little freckled girl from Ceres - being filled by farenmaddox
Kurogane expresses his love in subtle ways ("the moon is beautiful tonight," touching just the edge of Fay's sleeve, etc) - filled by zelinxia
Post-series, Fai needs to hear Kurogane's heartbeat to reassure himself his happiness isn't a dream - filled by uakari
Fai - real Fai, the one that died - was the older twin - filled by anon
Fai - real Fai, the one that died - was the older twin - filled by farenmaddox
Fai feels guilt over Kurogane's scars, and Kurogane thinks he needs to keep them hidden from Fai - filled by ereshkigali
Kurogane and Fai get married/bonded before the xxxHolic epilogue - filled by caffeine_buzz
Fai starred in a porn film during the group's travels & had fun - filled by misskirichan
Kuro-papa survived minus an arm and has been roaming dimensions looking for his son - filled by anon
Holitsuba - Yuuko & Fay have had sex before - filled by misskirichan
Holitsuba!Kurogane, Fai, and Yuui are all in a mutually satisfying relationship - filled by misskirichan
Holitsuba!Kurogane is the first person who hasn't been jealous of Fai and Yuui's closeness - filled by kittenkin
Kurogane prefers it when Fai tops - filled by xwittychickx
Fai feels guilt over Kurogane's scars, and Kurogane thinks he needs to keep them hidden from Fai - filled by sotongsotong
Kurogane is an absolute SAP - filled by anon
BB!Fai remained friends with the little freckled girl from Ceres - filled by anon
Kurogane forced Fai to feed the first time in Infinity - filled by sotongsotong

Unfilled Headcanons
Kurogane's father trained him the way Kurogane trained Syaoran.
Kurogane had a case of performance anxiety before he and Fai had sex the first time.
Kurogane is a virgin. Fay is not.
Kurogane takes particular notice of how Fai smells. Fai changes soap and Kurogane has to work up the courage to ask him to change it back.
Fai starts to experience some of Sakura's memories after C!Syaoran stores her feathers in his eye.
Fai and Yuui were born on a national holiday; this is considered an ill omen for Valeria
Kurogane accidentally kills his father during the fall of Suwa
Kurogane & Fai resettle Suwa post-series, and Kurogane grows his hair out like his father
Kurogane has a well-worn notebook filled with terrible poetry. Fai enjoys flipping through the pages and trying to guess which world each was written in.
Holitsuba - Kurogane and Fai keep tracking of whose on top with different coloured condoms. Fai steals Kurogane's in order to top more.
Fai slept around in Ceres (with men and women), but Kurogane is his first steady significant other.
Holitsuba!Kurogane hums to himself when he's in a good mood.
Fai is a creature composed out of magic, rather than human.
Kurogane's conscience sounds A LOT like Tomoyo.
Kurogane was devastated by Fai's 'good morning, Kurogane'.
Post-Clow arc: When Sakura and Syaoran went into the tube o'doom, they left their bodies as empty shells on the floor. Touya found them, and moved them into a long-term care wing at a hospital; waiting for their souls to come home again.
Fai is musically gifted, and every song he plays represents a specific memory/event from his life. Kurogane comes to realize this without Fai knowing it.
Kurogane is the worst boyfriend ever.
The other dimensional versions of Chi, Hideki and the twins live happily.
Fai was a virgin until he met Kurogane because Ashura-ou had some non-fatherly feelings towards him and though he couldn't openly have Fai he could stop others from even thinking of approaching Fai, and none dared to oppose the king.
Fai is uncomfortable with the Japanese way of bathing where everyone just strips naked and soak together.
Fai knew that he would live much longer than Kurogane and while traveling with Tsubasa!Shaoran has been trying to find a way for Kurogane and him to share the same lifespan.
Kurogane is loud in bed.
Kurogane and Fai shared a tent in Yama; Fai felt dirty after being assaulted by soldiers and begged Kurogane to clean him. They had sex regularly after that.

Comments

[perfectworry]

Fay doesn't like to sleep alone.

[(Anonymous)]

Fai doesn't like sleeping alone. It doesn't matter if it's dark or light; if the person lies next to him or stands or watches him - he just does not like being alone in the night.

He knows exactly how it started - with a court that hated him, and two little boys, left to their own devices most of the time. They shared the same cradle and then the same bed, and slept always, as in most things, as mirror images of each other; facing each other, hands clasped, foreheads touching and noses aligned. Breathing in each other's air, as close to each other as they could get. This was the only kindness they knew. When they cried, nobody came, nobody ever came, and so they lay as two dogs in a den, pressed tight together and holding on as if to a lifeline; this was their love.

It was harder in Ceres; not because of the lack of care - when he awoke screaming in the night, hands bunched up and clawing desperately at walls that were no longer there, face tipped to the ceiling and searching, searching for that falling child... people came, in Ceres. That was not what made it harder. What made it harder was sending them away, after-images of Fai's fear burned onto his retinas; he was Fai and he was not-Fai and he had slain his brother, and he did not deserve light and reassurance, he knew that.

(Ashura once sat with him the night regardless, reading a tedious tome concerning grain accountancy in the lower reaches; Fai's last waking thought that evening was this: this is a different kind of love, and it is almost more than I can bear.)

When he was thirteen years old (an unlucky age, an unlucky number - an unlucky child) he created Chi out of a magical feather. She was for his brother, this sparkling creation with their ash-blond hair and pale skin, their sharp chin and cheekbones; she was to watch over him, to love him better than Fai (not!Fai) had loved him himself, and yet.

And yet there were multiple nights - he would not say how many (he does not like to dwell, but he does) where this magical construct stayed not in the cold room with its swirling pool, bringing comfort to a boy who had died in fear and because of another's selfishness, but in a chair by his fireplace. She sang, like a songbird. He hadn't meant to bestow that attribute upon her.

(She was in the shape of his mother, and she sang and she stroked his hair, and Fai would not let himself love her, because he had sewn her shape out of magic and a foreign gift. He would be no Pygmalion, she would not be his statue; he knew better than to let himself be loved.)

He learned to sleep on his stomach, so as not to wake the palace: to hide his face and his fears and his nightmares into his pillow, and he kept himself to himself until (inevitably) the next act of the play rolled around: blood on Ruval's floors and worse than madness in his King's eyes, a kind of staid sanity that was a thousand times worse. And then...

And then.

(And then!)

Syaoran snored. Sakura talked sometimes in her sleep; she would roll around on the floor like an acrobat, roly-poly, roly-poly, and sometimes she would come to rest against his leg and he would wake up, suddenly, tugged from a (nightmare) nightly memory of falling and ice and blood, his heart pounding in his chest, sure - somehow - in those sluggish moments between sleep and wakefulness that he had somehow projected his dreams to them, that they had seen inside his head, that they would know what he wanted, what he was.

(Mokona would sleep on the pillow next to him, her little breaths puffs of cool air against his ear; she was the hardest of them all except -)

Kurogane didn't move an inch, and he was the one Fai feared the most; such a big man, so solid, so broad, even motionless in sleep he filled his space, and he radiated calm (and that was odd in and of itself, wasn't it? That such a violently tempermental man should be so still?) and he was...

There.

Just... there.

(And Fai wondered somewhere in the very back of his mind just what it would feel like to share his pillow, like two dogs in a den; tussled all close, breathing each other's air.)

Because the worst part was all of it - Mokona in his ear, Syaoran's rhythmic rising snore, Sakura tumbling over the sleeping mats, even Kurogane, stock-still and silent - the worst part of it was that he so desperately wanted it to go on, night after night; living, breathing people, chasing away the ghosts (the falling boy), keeping him... company.

(Betrayal is his middle-name.)

He keeps sleeping face-down. It's easier to disguise that sometimes, sometimes, his nightly visitors aren't nightmares any more, but dreams -

(wishes)

- of what could be.

(Wishes come with a price.)

Fai doesn't like sleeping alone. But sometimes, it's easier than sleeping with company.

[eijentu]

my heart is broken in half. i loved everything about this, it's absolutely gorgeous <3 <3 <3

[perfectworry]

This was so beautiful and so sad! Thank you so much, anonymous ficcer! ♥

[zelinxia]

Oh god, Fai ;_____________;

[cloverfield]

Aieeeeeeee. ;A; Just, please excuse me while I sob brokenly in a corner.

Also, I love that you've included all the little touches from that omake where their sleeping patterns are explained- and the painful justification for why Fai sleeps face down. This was heartwrenching and perfect. Well done, anon!

[farenmaddox]

When I read something with such a heavy weight, I lose my ability to do words. And I sit here in silence with my hands stretched out as though a person could see it or take my meaning from it. *stretches out hands* This is beautiful, anon.

[renlylittlerose]

Anon, this is so beautiful, though heart breaking too and so, so sad. Gorgeous really!