Headcanon ficathon!

[reikah]

Well, it's been a while since the Olympics, so I thought I'd throw this here as a fun community event (don't worry, this isn't the summer challenge/contest, I'm still ironing that out).

Welcome to the Kurofai headcanon meme!

What is a headcanon? A headcanon, for those of you not familiar with the terminology, is "An idea, belief, or aspect of a story that is not mentioned in the media itself, but is accepted by either the reader themselves or the fandom in general. If it is confirmed by the author of the story, it becomes canon." (Thanks, urban dictionary!) Examples might include 'Fai has terrible metabolism, his feet get very cold' or 'one of Mokona's 108 techniques is Vibrate Mode' or anything else you feel is true but never confirmed in the text. Not all headcanons are worksafe.

How it works:

You leave a comment with one of your Kurofai headcanons. You can do so signed into a dreamwidth account or anonymously, for those of you without dreamwidth accounts/with embarrassing headcanons.

Someone else will write a short story based around your headcanon, and post it as a reply to you.

In short, it works a lot like clampkink - but for headcanons rather than kinks!

Anonymous commenting is enabled, but you do not need to post headcanons/stories anonymously if you don't want to. I'm also going to go ahead and label this post NOT WORKSAFE preemptively, so please be careful browsing where your computer access is monitored! Stories can be as long and short as you like, and as SFW/NSFW as you feel like, or, if you prefer, you can fill with fanart instead - both are excellent. For our rules on threesomes or moresomes, check the comm rules in our profiles.

That's all the nitty-gritty out of the way - now let's go ahead and share some headcanons!

Filled Headcanons
Fai's hands hurt after the tower - filled by cloverfield
Holitsuba!Fai gives Kurogane finger puppets to help him teach sex ed - filled by Anon
Fai always could use chopsticks - he just pretended not to as part of his harmless idiot act - filled by eijentu
Fai doesn't like to sleep alone - filled by Anon
Tomoyo hand-stitched Fai's furisode herself - filled by ereshkigali
Fai is disappointed to be alive after Outo - filled by farenmaddox
Kurogane is an absolute SAP - filled by zelinxia
When Fai began to suspect what was going on with Ashura, he evacuated the survivors of Ceres to another world, which the travelers then encounter during their journey - filled by Anon
Kurogane forced Fai to feed the first time in Infinity - filled by farenmaddox
Kuro-sama likes being tied up - filled by cloverfield
Yama & Outo - Kurogane realises he's fallen for Fai - filled by rinoa11
Kurogane had a crush on an older ninja who acted like Fai, who died - filled by zelinxia
Kurogane is really bad in bed the first time - filled by tsubasafan
BB!Fai remained friends with the little freckled girl from Ceres - being filled by farenmaddox
Kurogane expresses his love in subtle ways ("the moon is beautiful tonight," touching just the edge of Fay's sleeve, etc) - filled by zelinxia
Post-series, Fai needs to hear Kurogane's heartbeat to reassure himself his happiness isn't a dream - filled by uakari
Fai - real Fai, the one that died - was the older twin - filled by anon
Fai - real Fai, the one that died - was the older twin - filled by farenmaddox
Fai feels guilt over Kurogane's scars, and Kurogane thinks he needs to keep them hidden from Fai - filled by ereshkigali
Kurogane and Fai get married/bonded before the xxxHolic epilogue - filled by caffeine_buzz
Fai starred in a porn film during the group's travels & had fun - filled by misskirichan
Kuro-papa survived minus an arm and has been roaming dimensions looking for his son - filled by anon
Holitsuba - Yuuko & Fay have had sex before - filled by misskirichan
Holitsuba!Kurogane, Fai, and Yuui are all in a mutually satisfying relationship - filled by misskirichan
Holitsuba!Kurogane is the first person who hasn't been jealous of Fai and Yuui's closeness - filled by kittenkin
Kurogane prefers it when Fai tops - filled by xwittychickx
Fai feels guilt over Kurogane's scars, and Kurogane thinks he needs to keep them hidden from Fai - filled by sotongsotong
Kurogane is an absolute SAP - filled by anon
BB!Fai remained friends with the little freckled girl from Ceres - filled by anon
Kurogane forced Fai to feed the first time in Infinity - filled by sotongsotong

Unfilled Headcanons
Kurogane's father trained him the way Kurogane trained Syaoran.
Kurogane had a case of performance anxiety before he and Fai had sex the first time.
Kurogane is a virgin. Fay is not.
Kurogane takes particular notice of how Fai smells. Fai changes soap and Kurogane has to work up the courage to ask him to change it back.
Fai starts to experience some of Sakura's memories after C!Syaoran stores her feathers in his eye.
Fai and Yuui were born on a national holiday; this is considered an ill omen for Valeria
Kurogane accidentally kills his father during the fall of Suwa
Kurogane & Fai resettle Suwa post-series, and Kurogane grows his hair out like his father
Kurogane has a well-worn notebook filled with terrible poetry. Fai enjoys flipping through the pages and trying to guess which world each was written in.
Holitsuba - Kurogane and Fai keep tracking of whose on top with different coloured condoms. Fai steals Kurogane's in order to top more.
Fai slept around in Ceres (with men and women), but Kurogane is his first steady significant other.
Holitsuba!Kurogane hums to himself when he's in a good mood.
Fai is a creature composed out of magic, rather than human.
Kurogane's conscience sounds A LOT like Tomoyo.
Kurogane was devastated by Fai's 'good morning, Kurogane'.
Post-Clow arc: When Sakura and Syaoran went into the tube o'doom, they left their bodies as empty shells on the floor. Touya found them, and moved them into a long-term care wing at a hospital; waiting for their souls to come home again.
Fai is musically gifted, and every song he plays represents a specific memory/event from his life. Kurogane comes to realize this without Fai knowing it.
Kurogane is the worst boyfriend ever.
The other dimensional versions of Chi, Hideki and the twins live happily.
Fai was a virgin until he met Kurogane because Ashura-ou had some non-fatherly feelings towards him and though he couldn't openly have Fai he could stop others from even thinking of approaching Fai, and none dared to oppose the king.
Fai is uncomfortable with the Japanese way of bathing where everyone just strips naked and soak together.
Fai knew that he would live much longer than Kurogane and while traveling with Tsubasa!Shaoran has been trying to find a way for Kurogane and him to share the same lifespan.
Kurogane is loud in bed.
Kurogane and Fai shared a tent in Yama; Fai felt dirty after being assaulted by soldiers and begged Kurogane to clean him. They had sex regularly after that.

Comments

[uakari]

Kurogane's conscience sounds a LOT like Tomoyo :D

[uakari]

Somedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay your porn will come~

[reikah]

IN EVERY ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM IN THE SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP

until the surprise reveal that actually doumeki was kobato all along

[uakari]

don't make me come over there

[reikah]

COME AT ME, BRO

[tsubasafan]

ffffffffffff OH GOD.

[uakari]

/THUMPS CHEST AGGRESSIVELY

DO NOT TEMPT THE WILD MANDA

[farenmaddox]

it's probably a good thing because clearly I cannot be trusted with people's precious things

[sotongsotong]

Umm, I know that Faren has filled this headcanon and I'm kinda late to the party, but here, have a second fill? couse this is one of my dearest headcanons for KuroFai QwQ <3




The very moment his fist slams into the wall, you sense what feels like a hundred thousand needles poking through your heart, and you know, you just know, that this is hardly the beginning of an ocean of wrongs; it is the unintended outcome of your many mistakes, carelessly long in the making, and harsh in its wake.

( “ W H Y ARE YOU EVEN THINKING OF D Y I N G? “ )

Even as your vision swims in red and darkness, you note that the ninja has left a hole on the wall.

( and for what seems like good measure, in your heart as well )


*

Dying is

a) only natural

b) an easier way out

c) your deepest, dirtiest romance


*

Your eyes fly open.

Your nose inhales.

Your fingers claw.

Your heart beats.

( if memory serves you right, corpses don’t scream )

You find yourself mercilessly alive, and plagued by a series of whys’.


*

( E.g – why on earth did he desire to save you at all? )


*

( E.g – why did you even let it come to this in the first place? )


*

( E.g - whywhywhywhywhywhywhyjust why? )


*

Though the truth may vary, you believe that it is in his best interest that you keep away from him as much as possible. Both anger and resentment are emotions that have paid few visits to you, but you cling to them now as how a drowning man clutches for anything to stay afloat.

( you had no right to do what you did, you didn’t know what I’m truly here for, you didn’t have a million lies spilling from your tongue, you didn’t get blinded by how nice it was to see the children happy, you didn’t have to hide tears by stuffing your face down onto a pillow, you didn’t force yourself to keep smiling even if your cheeks fucking hurt, you didn’t run away from anything or anyone, you didn’t make a country extinct, you didn’t climb up a ladder of bodies, you didn’t see another you dead, you didn’t you just didn’t--

you aren’t misfortune )

You stare past the ninja and speak in clipped in tones when the need to communicate arises, your nicknames for him long gone unused.

And you pointedly do not ask for his blood.

( you didn’t think it would be this hard )


*

But, ah, how could you forget : when has he ever stuck to anyone’s rules?

Least of all, yours.

( damn him )


*

He catches your arm, his fingers curling unexpectedly gently around it ( but even you know that there is little hope of shaking that grip off ), and gives you a look.

( you’ve never, never told him you drown when those bright red eyes see you )

“ Start feeding already, idiot. “

You narrow your eyes, and just stand there in stubborn silence. How many times have you faced this? And how many times more before he finally quits?

Yet, perhaps, it has been one stand-off too many for the other man: without a word, he slips ‘Souhi’ out of its sheath with his free hand, his expression darker than it has ever been before.

Your breath catches; your lungs forget oxygen.

( “ If you want to die so badly, I’ll kill you “, he once declared )

He raises the blade --

( your brain screeches finally, finally, finally, oh, finally )

-- and brings it over an expanse of skin slightly below the wrist of his hand that is holding you, lightly slicing it open.

And, then, there is blood.

( “ Until then, live. “ )

There. Is. Blood.

His. Blood.

( l - i - v - e )

Just a whiff of metallic tang, and your knees buckle, shivers crackling up your spine like the branches of a lightning strike, windpipe clogging with want and need and must, teeth fangs chattering, and why were you stupid enough to even think he would end your fucking misery now--

“ …I’m sorry “, the bastard softly, softly says, and slowly but firmly guides your shaking head towards the flowing cut after sheathing ‘Souhi’.

You wrench yourself backwards, and you laugh.

You laugh, and laugh, and laugh, and it is very loud and very mad.

( don’t they dare turn into hysterical sobs )

“ No, Kurogane, that won’t do. You can’t just go about stripping people’s choice to live or die, take their will towards sustenance in your own hands, and only then toss out an apology. That’s too messed up! Even for us. “

He regards you with lidded eyes, mouth set in a tight grim line, as though considering the matter for a moment.

And forces your head down towards the wound again, anyway.


*

You do not understand why you comply in the end.

( why do you fucking love, love, love when you know I can’t love? )

So, you promise him walls.

( ” You really are hopeless, Kurogane. “ )

[sotongsotong]

May I fill this? Just gimme a day or two, i need to get some fluff into my system after all the angst ><;;

[sotongsotong]

May i do a second fill for this? 8DDD This idea intrigues me to no end, so if you'll give me 2 days, I'll have a piece up as well! :D

[zelinxia]

Be right back, I'm going to go cry in the corner.

The symbolism of Kurogane's blood and Fai's cries of 'why' and just the jarring wall he feels he has to put up because Kurogane never listens to anybody, oh GOD MY HEART.

I think I nearly lost it though when Kurogane softly says 'I'm sorry', because fuck the often stoic portrayal of him, he's terribly hurt and knows that he has to deal with this consequence; but that doesn't make it any better for Fai or him.

Help, I'm bleeding feels everywhere. ;______________;

[farenmaddox]

//sobs messily

So I love the interesting structure, the fits and starts of it, the slight asides and wavering between brutality and tenderness in Fai's sense of honesty. I just. Am not okay?

ALSO HOW DID YOU DO THAT? THAT IS MY NEWEST KUROFAI SONG. I can't believe somebody else knows about that songggggggg. *sings the whole thing very loudly and sobs some more* That song is just. Gah. And your use of it right there at the end is utterly perfect.

[sotongsotong]

awwwww 8'D //hands you tissues


Angst is my fic-bread and butter, so I'm extremely pleased that you're not okay 'cause that's what I aim for when I write: to hurt as much as possible. BUT COME HERE, AND LEMME GIVE U A HUG TO MAKE IT ALL BETTER. D':

Ohh, do you mean 'Love,Love,Love' by Of Monsters and Men? :D I FUCKING KNOW RIGHT. THE MOMENT I HEARD IT AND I WAS LIKE 'MMMM MMMM MMMM, THIS IS KUROFAI MATERIAL ALRIGHT ' LOL i was actually alternately listening to 'Over the Love' by F+M and 'love,Love,Love' while writing this :D

[sotongsotong]

//follows you to corner to offer tissues and cupcakes


I KNOW RIGHT. Kurogane may be stone-faced about it but I'm sure he was hurting as badly as everyone else around him. ;A;



*flails* CAN I MAKE IT UP TO YOU WITH A FLUFFY FILL IF YOU'LL COME UP WITH A FLUFFY HEADCANON?

[zelinxia]

So....Faren and I were talking about a KuroFai AMV to "Love, Love, Love". It will take some time, but I definitely will make one with input from Faren. >.>

[sotongsotong]

*pika pika eyes* Please make it feels-hurts as much as possible <3 *w* ohgodwhyamIsuchanangstwhoreee. I'll definitely keep my eyes open for it!

[farenmaddox]

;______;

people like my headcanon, that's all I need. Fills are also good. Take as much time as you want. :3

[sotongsotong]

TRC headcanon: That Kurogane was extremely thrown off-balance from Fai's " Good morning, Kurogane. " His stern face may hide it all, but the pain of seeing another just throw his life away, and tying that person's will to live to his no matter how unwilling the person in concern was, seethes within.

ANGST IN ITS MAXIMUM DOSE, PLS. MY FEELS ARE READY.

[sotongsotong]

Also doing a second fill for this because this is an amazing, lovely headcanon <3 OwO piece will be up in 2 days!

[cloverfield]

Ahhhhhh, living pillows are best pillows~

That nightmare was terrible (god, Fai, will you ever be able to sleep peacefully?) but Kurogane just letting Fai stick his freezing cold hands under his clothes to find his heartbeat (and encouraging it with his own hand on top) is just perfect. ♥

[cloverfield]

I BOUGHT YOU AN ICECREAM

BUT IT MELTED

...IN MY MOUTH

<.<;;

AHAHAHAHAH I AM HAPPY YOU LIKE THIS, LOVIE, EATEN FEELS OR NO! ♥

[cloverfield]

OH GOD WHY

FAI YOU BRAVE SOUL YOU BRAVE PERFECT SOUL

PLEASE EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY LIKE A BROKEN THING FOR THE REST OF TIME

[cloverfield]

AIEEEEEEEEEEEE I GET TWO FILLS AND THEY ARE BOTH GLORIOUSLY TRAGIC AND PAINFUL

and have I mentioned I love your writing style and your clever use of formatting? BECAUSE I LOVE YOUR GODDAMN GORGEOUS WRITING STYLE AND YOUR BRILLIANT USE OF FORMATTING *A*

He regards you with lidded eyes, mouth set in a tight grim line, as though considering the matter for a moment.

And forces your head down towards the wound again, anyway.

THIS. THIS KILLED ME OH GAWD. YOU AMAZING PERSON YOU, DON'T YOU EVER STOP WRITING ;A;

[perfectworry]

I read this on the way to work this morning, like "oh, have some feels to start this rainy day off right~" and then it nearly ended with me sobbing grossly all over the other commuters. Why would you do that to my feeeeelings?! ♥ Thank you so much for this!