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[Team Drama] (Rule 63) Her eyes you'll remember

Title: Her eyes you'll remember
Prompt: Rule 63
Rating: M
Warnings: Violence, torture towards the end, and a short sex scene
Author's Note: Apparently can never write something short for a fem!KuroFai fanfic. Oh well. With that said, I'm done, whoo!
Prologue | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Epilogue
~the end.
Thank you for reading! How did I do?
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1. How in-character was this fic? (1-10)
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? (1-10)
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? (1-10)
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This.
Is.
Completely.
Amazing.
I am so, so proud of you for this. It's a massive fic, and it's so well done. Kurogane and Fai were perfect, they really were. You have such a good handle on those characters and I just knew that if anybody could write them as trans characters it would be you, but you still really blew me away. I loved it.
And your worldbuilding was just really gorgeous, on top of that. The underground, the history of witches, all of that was so creative and cool and fun. I am a sucker for urban fantasy. I wasn't expecting ghosts, and Yuuko was a surprise, but such a lovely one! It was definitely the underground that really thrilled me, though, especially with the abandoned house that Sakura and Syaoran lived in, and the abandoned theatre. It was so atmospheric and fun to visualize. Something about the set up-- Ruby, the queen of the underground, and Sakura hidden away with her secret talents in the heart of the maze--really gave me Acid Tokyo vibes, too.
I really love this fic, and I'm so happy you wound up writing for this prompt. You're awesome.
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I'm proud my world building was imaginative. It's a writing element I'm not always confident in, so I'm glad. And in a way, the center of the underground was meant to echo Tokyo (and Infinity when Sakura says 'everything will be alright), so I'm happy it gave those vibes! A part of me was giddy I could write a mirrored scenario where Syaoran's actions betray Fai (and Kurogane), but mostly because he felt he didn't have a choice.
Thank you for cheering me on at the last minute! ♥♥♥
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(Anonymous) 2014-04-24 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)I can wholeheartedly say that I loved the premise of this piece. It was intriguing and just alkjlsrkgj it was awesome. I was honestly taken aback about the transgender bits; maybe I'm just close minded, but that hadn't crossed my mind when I saw the prompt, so kudos to you!
Also, heh. "Kurogane Suwa, Licensed Private Detective of Hawk Vision: Private Eye Agency. Need a professional eye? PD Suwa’s your eye... With vision like a hawk, PD Suwa never fails on your case." I snorted and woke up my house mates.
How in-character was this fic? 8
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 9.5
Thank you!
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(Anonymous) 2014-04-24 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)invidira.tumblr.com
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I am not sorry for making you wake up your house mates, not at all. It was one of my top favorite things to write, cause Kurogane literally has the power to see and know. You know, I just realized with her new airborne Locating powers, she truly has hawk eyes now!
So happy you enjoyed it! Thank YOU for reading and voting! It is very appreciated. :D
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1. How in-character was this fic? 10
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 9
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 10
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I love Kurogane who plays by her own rules and has her own scales by which to weigh right and wrong. To others they might seem complicated but to her they're pretty cut and dry. Fai is so poignant here too, with decisions seeming more like forced reactions to outside forces in contrast to Kurogane who is more actively decisive. Kurogane's "this is my choice, and I don't regret it" seems to sum it all up; once Kurogane makes a decision there's no looking back, while Fai sometimes does nothing but look back in regret.
Syaoran's fierce determination and occasional awkwardness and Sakura's charm and earnestness were so sweet and it made their situation all the more pitiable. Still children despite being forced by circumstances to grow up too quickly, just like in the original.
I kind of lost the feel of who peeps were in the other characters. It can be very difficult to showcase a person's character and personality when they don't get a lot of screen time. The main stars were spot on though. <3
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? (10)
Very well indeed. Not just thrown in there just to get the job done, but focused on and made a part of the story. The beginning to part two is my favorite part of this entire story. You know me and my love of backstory. XD I thought it was very fitting that the female-only Shara v1 setting be used for this, too. Other little nods to the original story were also delightful to find, like little Easter eggs.
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? (10)
This may sound odd but I feel like I'm reading something really important, not just reading something for simple entertainment. A dramatic or angsty story may stir up a lot of emotion and a well-written story will keep my attention, but while reading this I keep...almost getting pulled out of the story?...to think to myself that this is good in a way that I don't quite understand fully, and that I need to pay attention. Maybe I'm trying to say that I think it was very important that you wrote this, and that people read this.
*cheers for Seishirou being defeated by yards upon yards of curtains* XD
... *muffled sobs while drowning in Tokyo and Infinity flashbacks* EXCUSE U.
This is an amazing feat you've accomplished, sweetheart. You should be so proud of yourself. It's one hell of a fic in scope and length...there's just so much going on and then MORE things keep happening! I kept getting surprised when new stuff cropped up, from beginning (psychic powers?!) to end (hi, GHOSTS?!) and the story just kept pulling me along for one wild ride. The epilogue is just the best. Everyone living together as a big happy family and Tomoyo getting to design a dress for Sakura is perf. <3 I just wish Mokona had been there too. (...and if she was and I am forgetting that or missed it I apologize. Flying on very little sleep and it's totally possible my brain did a big data dump as I typed this up. :P)
*standing ovation for amazing fic* <3
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2. Coming up with the back story for everything was pretty fun! I knew when I needed to name the underground society, it would refer to Suzuran and her troupe. It just made sense. And well, witches (now Psychics) are very important. I wanted to have womanhood be central to the fic, without it being heavily in the face and done poorly. Which, for me is not hard to write at all. You know me and my weakness for writing Rule 63!
3. Oh wow, an important fanfic? I'm honored you regard it as such! I'm sure I have tons to improve in the future, but I felt good writing this where all four main characters are trans people. Some from personal experience, and a lot from reading several things written by trans women. I'm glad you got something out of reading this, in this aspect.
On the one hand, I'm sorry for making this fic a huge ride, but on the other, yesssssss. The ghosts were planned right away, and should anyone go back to read the prologue, it's more clear a ghost was waiting in the lobby. I got away building things and tossing characters. It's a lot in such a short time frame - I plan on rewriting scenes, especially the showdown, and making the pace overall better.
And no, Mokona wasn't in there. I tried to have her, but I just didn't know how.
Thank you for reading and voting! I know you are really busy and tired lately, so it means so much that you're taking time to read this. And thank you for having me over so I could crank out words. You're the best. ♥
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I really loved the world-building in this; it's a super interesting universe and its elements are introduced very subtly and naturally. So often people just hit the readers over the head with infodumping, but you managed to build all the details up slowly and cleverly, so by the end I really felt like I was immersed in this universe. Fai's characterisation throughout was fantastic, and you did a really great job of balancing her playfulness with her reluctance to take risks and her mistrustfulness. Syaoran and Sakura were ADORABLE, and I loved how Sakura started to bond with Fai immediately!!
KUROGANE'S TEENAGE EMO GOTH YEARS OMG FAVOURITE FAVOURITE FAVOURITE. AND OF COURSE FAI THINKS SHE WAS ADORABLE the world needs five million more fics about angsty punkrock rebelgirl teenage Kurogane. AND. RUBY MOON. MY FAVOURITE. WITH XE PRONOUNS. I JUST. !!!!!!!!
basically you did fantastic things with this prompt and I'm just so glad that this fic exists <3
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And thank you! I'm making my way on world building and giving enough details so that the settings really sticks. It always makes me happy when I know I made an intriguing universe. I had fun dabbling with a psionic/psychic/paranormal AU.
NOTHING CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE THAT TEENAGER KUROGANE HAS THEIR EMO GOTH/PUNK ROCK DAYS AND FLIPPING THEIR FINGERS ALL THE TIME. I mean, those phases can get awkward and terrible but also hilarious to look back at. Example: When I was in middle school, I dabbled in wearing all black for my school uniform and wearing those studded belts and just having quite a temper problem.
Of course this was all a lot to do with major depression, as if adolescence wasn't already tough enough. I'm sure everyone had those phases, though not necessarily in fashion. BUT WE NEED MORE ANGSTY PUNKROCK REBELGIRL/BOY/NB TEENAGE KUROGANE.Again, thank you for your enthusiasm and support for Rule 63 cause those are never enough! And overall I'm just glad we're on the same team GO TEAM SRS BZN!
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I also respect the way you chose to handle the trope and greatly admire the use of diverse identities amongst the characters. People on tumblr always say stupid stuff like people shouldn't expect to be addressed by their preferred pronouns because it's to difficult. As made evident by your fic though it's really not and I was just very elated that that fact was exemplified in the story overall. :3
I don't think any other person in the fandom could have quite as effectively written a trans* or otherwise genderqueer character and so hats off to you!
It was a good read I'm just sorry it took me so long to finish.
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And yeah, I'm really blessed I don't follow any blogs who endorse that respecting people's pronouns is worthless (and if I do see it, I will not hesitate to unfollow >3) As I told invidira, I've done my share of writing them as cis women, so it was time to do transgender AU. I definitely want to write more in the future!
Thank you for reading in between your hectic schedules! I know you're usually busy, so it means a lot that you thunder through my long-as-hell fic. Thank you! <3333
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(Anonymous) 2014-05-01 03:18 pm (UTC)(link)1. How in-character was this fic?
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
Your characterization of Kurogane and Fai is honestly the strongest point in your writing (and this extends to your other works for the pairing, which are fantastic in their own right). Their personalities translated very well into this new setting and their respective backgrounds -- I did however feel sometimes that I was being told about these things, rather than shown. This definitely didn't take away from the overall experience, though :)
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 9
I've actually had this sitting around in my phone for a long while because I was intimidated by the sheer length of it! I was definitely happy when I finally got around to it: I really liked your world-building, and the mix of magic and science in it. Thank you very much for taking the time to write all of this out! :)
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2. I definitely agree there were moments that could have been shown, versus being told - especially Fai's background, because the story is strictly (barring Yuuka-ku's history) from Kurogane's POV. Thank you for being honest with your impressions! When I redo and polish segments for the future, I'll keep this in mind. :D
3. It was certainly not my intentions to make the length intimidating. I honestly was aiming for no more than 20K originally, can you believe that? Though all in all, it worked out well, and I'm also pleased with the world building, so to hear the same from you makes me happy.
And thank YOU for taking the time to tackle my fic and scoring, along with everyone else's entries. We cannot say it enough how much we appreciate you scoring. Your part is super important to the fun annual event!!
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1. How in-character was this fic? 8
I felt that you wrote a very personal version of Kurogane and that you must have put a lot of you in her and you made her very real. I liked her, though sometimes I felt she was somwhat away from the Kurogane we know, like she deserved to be a character of her own and not just an AU-version of another character. She felt so fragile and raw sometimes, but she was also strong and determinate. I really liked Fai and Tomoyo too. And god, their stories... ;_;
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
First of all, I think it's very important that you wrote this. There's not enough awareness about transsexuality, I'm not very informed or used to it, since I had never come in contact with the theme outside of tumblr, so it was very nice that you wrote something like this. I admit I was a bit taken aback by it at first, since I'm not used to reading about transsexual characters, but in the end I didn't care anymore and I was really enjoying what you wrote and I feel I learned something. You were able to pull of the trope with a twist and make it something good and you still created a whole universe!
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 8
I knew from your description how important this was to you and I think you managed to pull it off well. :D I just didn't like so much how you sometimes told stuff instead of showing it, it made some transitions and relationships feel a bit rushed, and the dialogue too. I enjoyed this fic. I just felt it was so real in some issues it tackled, and so personal, that it was a bit overwhelming. Maybe because it was the first time I was actually reading something like this too, I felt very serious reading it! xD I also liked how this was kind of a crossover with that other fic you wrote with Kurogane self-cest, I had always felt curious about that Kurogane's story, so it was nice to see it written here! And now it's almost 4 am in here, I should really go to sleep. This is totally your fault for making me want to finish this and know what was going to happen! ò.ó
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1. You're right! This Kurogane really was something unique for me to write. I admit I experimented the most on Kurogane's character for this story (coupled with another unfinished wip) and was nervous how readers will react, but as you can see, I kept with it! She's fierce (and could be more fierce than what I wrote), anger-triggered and determined, but she also is still deeply wounded from her parents dying because of Reed's agenda and takes it more personally than she wants to. As for how she became so fragile after Fai's rapid absence; I wrote it how I think a Kurogane would react and become IF Fai actually was gone from the picture. A lot of AU fanfics have Fai giving Kurogane a cold shoulder of sort while being physically present, ala canon, but there aren't a lot of Fai being physically and emotionally away. Thank you for being honest about your assessment of her; and I'm glad in spite of that, you like her.
2. Tumblr is this very interesting kind of bubble EVEN on the Internet. It's where I learned more about topics like this, and even meeting people who helped me discover the identities that better define me. I wouldn't say I pulled the Rule 63 trope with a 'twist'. We're just conditioned to equate gender with certain body types (especially genitalia...), and paired with the extreme lack of trans characters in the media and fandom, we're not used to it when we finally find contents like this fic. As always, I'm extremely happy (and proud!) trans fem!KuroFai has warm reception! And that the universe was decently shaped!
3. I'm sorry it felt overwhelming with the variety of real-life influenced topics this world was built on - without the history of (trans)misogyny included, the world building would have been a lot weaker in the writing window. I'm also aware there are transitions and dialogues that could have been written better - may I ask which scenes, dialogues, and relationship felt rushed for you? Sometime in the near future I'm going to revamp and polish this fic now that I no longer have Olympics writing time constraints, and I'd love to hear feedback from you. Thank you for your critique!
Ahaha, and here I am still babbling how writing this and that was super important to me in my comments. :'D Ahh, I did not know you have read Corruption. I'm glad this fed your curiosity; since I myself was itching to give a better background for her and Fai. Then you'll also know the unnamed man she met at the bar towards the end of Part 3 could be trc!Kurogane himself. Doesn't have to be, but in my mind, it is. >D Thank you so much for finishing where you left off and voting, even if it robbed precious sleeping time from you! I know you always make sure to look through every entries each Olympics, and we can't express our appreciation enough.
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I always try to read and rate everything, because I don't think it's fair some people get more votes than others, it feels unbalanced, and it's always so nice to find new fics and new writers! Makes me really happy to have joined this fandom. Even though the series is over, it's still so full of life! I also try to be very honest, because I'd worry if people just put numbers on my fic and didn't say why they rated the way they did (though it's a totally valid vote, not everyone has time for big essays xD). I just hope I don't express myself too bluntly sometimes, I'm always afraid I'll offend someone unintentionally. OTL
Since you asked, one scene that stayed in my mind was how quick I felt Syaoran and Sakura warmed up to Kurogane and Fai. That was a part I read before yesterday, so I can't point out exactly why it felt that way, but I remember having felt it was a bit rushed in there. I think the problem was that there's parts with a lot of description at some points, and then it switches to more dialogue, so it feels a bit rushed at those parts with more dialogue. But it was probably the hurry of finishing it so I'm sure with a bit polishing it will be perfect! Writing for this kind of stuff must be so stressful, I totally admire all of you for pulling this stuff in time, especially big fics like yours!
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1. How in-character was this fic? 8
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10, would go for 11 if I could
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 9
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2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 7.5 (I just remember reading like these whole long areas of exposition that were just like piles and piles of information and I had to stop reading for a bit just to get through it. Plus I've just honestly enjoyed other fics you've written more.)
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Thanks for scoring!
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1. How in-character was this fic? 9
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 9
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I thought the worldbuilding was very nicely done, I felt like this world could be explored more and expanded upon (perhaps side stories?).
I really liked how you constructed the parallels with the TRC story.
1. How in-character was this fic? 7.5
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 9
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 7
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I always have fun coming up with parallels compliant to the AU. Personally my favorite for this fic is creating a scenario where Syaoran was forced to betray Fai. If it wasn't for Sakura's safety at stake, they wouldn't have told Seishirou about her whereabouts.
World-building! I will incorporate more of the world and the nitty gritty details when I work on heavy revision for this fic. I've been asking everyone who's left constructive criticism for more feedback, so I'd like to ask you the same. Were there any aspects of this world you wish you knew about?
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And of course the history of the underground could certainly be expanded upon. But then again, that could be material for a whole different story! I don't know if you could add more backstory to this one without straying too far off topic, but maybe you could find a way to do it!
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1. How in-character was this fic? 8
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 6.5
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I don't know if you'll get this reply via open ID, but I ask everyone who mentioned constructive criticism to elaborate. When you said it was hard to read through, was it grammar/syntax, plot pacing, or something else/everything? I really want to revise this since this is a rough draft. And I am definitely going to keep writing...slowly...while my Muse keeps throwing ideas and piling WIPs. I digress.
Thank you for reading and scoring!
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Your grammar tended to be fine, mostly it was word choice, word use, and sort of incomplete translation of the scene to the page in places, if that makes sense. Stuff that a beta-reader should have caught for you, or a thorough editing would have cleaned up. An early bit that stood out (to me) was this:
When the sun set – streaks of blue and violet splashed across the twilit sky – the vicinity had transformed into nightlife mode. Some people were dressed down, but mostly the rest were very dressed up. Sleek clothes, studded heels, and the strong mixes of perfume and cologne littered the streets.
Kurogane was hanging outside of a dive bar on her bike, but she had no such intentions of going out tonight. Dressed in faded denims and a classic white beater tank, she contented herself to observe the small, dilapidated eyewear shop a few hundred feet down from her spot.
Some word choices that don't fit the meaning of what I felt you were trying to convey. Like 'vicinity', when area or neighborhood would have made more sense. 'Littered' when you're talking about incorporeal smells and you could have used something more apt like permeated instead. Then redundant phrasing with "no such intentions of going out tonight" - it's obvious you meant to clarify what her intentions were, but having 'such' in there throws the sentence off. Also with 'twilit sky' earlier, twilight already does imply those softer darker blue shades, so it's hard to picture how blue and violet would stand out against that sort of sky. And lastly, just some jarring slight misuse of 'contented herself to observe', which should instead have been contented herself with observing.
Going back to find specific bits, I think nearly all of my discomfort reading was due to word choice. (Which could be entirely due to reading as a subjective experience, please don't take me as being critical just to be mean.) Truthfully, I started going down the list of fics reading, and this was one (not the only one...I feel so awful) that I started and dropped, and came back to to be thorough. Your second paragraph, for example:
And three, the ghosts of a ringing bell alerted the presence of a late-night client.
'Ghosts' didn't make much sense to me - like, did the bell ring or not? Should I interpret that as echoes? And 'alerted the presence' should have either been alerted her to the presence or something like signaled the presence.
Followed by:
“Didn’t you notice the sign? Office’s closed. Come back some other time with your case,” she said.
But she didn’t hear the front door open and closing from outside in the waiting room. Nor did the visitor say something back.
It's hard to tell the spatial layout of this scene, but it seems that Kurogane is in an interior office without a view of the front door, so called instead of 'said' would have been a lot clearer. Using 'said' made it seem as if Kurogane and her visitor were in the same room and for some reason she wasn't looking to see what was going on, which contradicts the 'outside in the waiting room'.
And to explain what I meant by incomplete translation of the scene to the page, this part:
The gun slipped out of her hands.
And.. clattered to the floor? That line could have used something as a follow-up. Plus, for Kurogane, who has handled firearms for years, dropping a gun like that is an irresponsible thing to do, which, yes, totally speaks of her extreme shock here, but it would be good to allude to that within the text. Without a nod towards yes, dropping her gun like that is a really big deal (and also we're lucky it didn't go off), it just feels kind of incomplete.
Anyway, I hope that helps you see where I was coming from. And in fact it could very easily be that your writing is just fine and I am just a bad reader! :x
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I want to keep the word 'ghost' though, however, because I specifically chose it to foreshadow that Kurogane's visitor is a ghost, as fully revisited and revealed in Part 4.
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(Anonymous) 2014-05-17 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 9
I love the world you built up and the fact that it was trans fem!kurofai. I feel like it tends to get overlooked in fanfiction sometimes, so it's really nice to have this.
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1. How in-character was this fic? 9
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 9
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 10
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1. How in-character was this fic? 9
2. How well did this fic handle the trope? 10
3. How much did you enjoy this fic overall? 10
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You got your votes in time. All deadlines have been going by PDT, and judging by your profile, that's your timezone, too! (It is mine as well, ehehe).
I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. I wish you best health. Thank you for reading and scoring! And take care!!